Book 2:

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Prologue

A treacherous hike reminds SJ of her grandparents love story, triggering a vulnerable call that launches a journey across the world.

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Chapter One: Unspoken Permission

On Clayton’s 45th birthday, SJ hikes Ka’ena Point with two shoeless young Spaniards, wondering if she has Clayton’s blessing to ever truly fall in love again.

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Chapter Two: Major Plans

Plans to attend a yoga retreat quickly escalate into a summer in Southeast Asia.

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Chapter Three: Landmark Dildo

Watching Ceci skillfully navigate Bangkok, SJ discovers her “happy little girl” has healed in ways that seemed impossible.

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Chapter Four: Elephant Soap

For SJ and Cecilia, a trip to an elephant sanctuary becomes more than just an adventure. It is a revelation. 

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Chapter Five: The Bad Cook

On a day trip through northern Thailand, SJ confronts cultural collisions—first at a roadside meal where generosity and wastefulness blur, then in a Kayan village where the weight of history sits, quite literally, on her shoulders.

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Chapter Six: The Race

The confrontational energy and instant rivalry between Kez and Cecilia forces SJ to confront her deepest fears — What if she no longer understands her daughter? Can their bond be threatened by a man?

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Chapter Seven: Out is Through

SJ, Ceci, Jeff & Kez head up to Pai, game for a spelunking expedition where they find themselves balancing on the precipice of rickety boats and amazing grace. 

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Chapter Eight, Part One:

The Maybe Baby

A mysterious rash and a missed period force SJ to confront a terrifying possibility — What if she’s pregnant at fifty? Could a Maybe Baby tie her to a man she doesn’t love and has she lost the choice to decide her fate?

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Chapter Eight, Part Two:

The Maybe Baby

Amidst the ashes of tragedy, the end of a great love, and a ticking biological clock, SJ dares to ask for joy on her own terms—even if it means pink dildos, gay baby daddies and a Maybe Baby.

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Chapter Nine:

TURBULENCE

Bali becomes both battleground and teacher as a haunted villa, online backlash, and a challenging yoga intensive forces SJ to shed old identities, face death threats and learn—once again—that the only way out is through.

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